Monthly Archives: September 2013

The Birth Story: Foster’s frank breech home birth

Here at the beginning of a life you see the funniest things.

We woke up this morning and both agreed Foster’s face had changed overnight. So, link I better post before time slips away from us… here are a few of his faces right now.

The cringe.

TheCringe

The almost smile– a reflex at this point, order but hey, isn’t it cute?

AlmostSmiling?

The gaze.

Gazing

The cross eye.

CrossEye

Justallaroundperfect

 

And the “Where’s Daddy?”

WithDad2

Foster is as happy as can be. Easy, easy, easy so far… he practically sleeps through the night, aside from waking up to eat – but then he’s right back out again.

xoxo,

Alaina
Here at the beginning of a life you see the funniest things.

We woke up this morning and both agreed Foster’s face had changed overnight. So, adiposity I better post before time slips away from us… here are a few of his faces right now.

The cringe.

TheCringe

The almost smile– a reflex at this point, approved but hey, isn’t it cute?

AlmostSmiling?

The gaze.

Gazing

The just all around perfect.

CrossEye

Foster is as happy as can be. Easy, easy, easy so far… he practically sleeps through the night, aside from waking up to eat – but then he’s right back out again.

xoxo,

Alaina
Here at the beginning of a life you see the funniest things.

We woke up this morning and both agreed Foster’s face had changed overnight. So, visit I better post before time slips away from us… here are a few of his faces right now.

The cringe.

TheCringe

The almost smile– a reflex at this point, approved but hey, isn’t it cute?

AlmostSmiling?

The gaze.

Gazing

The just all around perfect.

CrossEye

Foster is as happy as can be. Easy, easy, easy so far… he practically sleeps through the night, aside from waking up to eat – but then he’s right back out again.

xoxo,

Alaina
Seth and I decided, mind after our 20 week ultrasound with a doctor, look to stop seeing a physician and exclusively see our midwives. The doctor gave us his blessing as I was completely healthy with zero complications anticipated in Foster’s birth. Now, we are torn on whether or not that was the right decision.

Every girl’s dream labor

With everyone telling us how awful labor is our entire lives, it’s hard to believe the experience can actually be awesome. But it can. I can now attest to that. I had been anxiously awaiting mine, scared I wouldn’t be able to handle the pain. After all, I had screamed “epidural” after about twenty minutes of labor with Benjamin, thanks in large part to the Pitocin. But still… could I handle it this time around? In my home? With no medication in sight? Our midwives assured me that my body would know exactly what to do. In fact, all I had to do was get out of the way, mentally speaking. Read More…

Baby faces.

After a breezy 10 hour labor with zero complications, ambulance except for the fact that he managed to flip himself in the tub and was born breech (yeah), rx Foster Raymond Gray joined us at 6:02 pm on Monday, sildenafil September 16.

Full birth story in the works, along with some decent photographs. For now, you’ll have to settle for this view from my iPhone on Day 2.

blended family baby

We are madly, madly in love with our little Foster.

I am on a fast road to feeling back to myself again thanks to being completely pampered by Seth.
After a breezy 10 hour labor with zero complications, viagra except for the fact that he managed to flip himself in the tub and was born breech, information pills Foster Raymond Gray joined us at 6:02 pm on Monday, visit this September 16th. He is a little miracle and we can’t even believe how lucky we are that all turned out well considering his last minute acrobatics.

A full birth story is in the works, along with some decent photographs. For now, you’ll have to settle for this view from my iPhone on Day 2.

blended family baby

We are madly, madly in love with him and I am on a fast road to feeling back to myself again thanks to being completely pampered by Seth…

Your lucky, lucky and deeply grateful mama -

Alaina
I had a mix of emotions about the impending labor.

The first– an incredible fear of the pain. I had read and watched a mix of birth stories. Those in Ina May’s birth books described their non-hospital births as a more of a drug trip, advice or a high. They deliberately used positive language like “rushes” instead of “contractions”. And then there were the birth stories on documentaries like The Business of Being Born that described the pain as absolutely unbearable, something you just have to surrender yourself to because it’s so bad.

I think there is little doubt, that in this country especially, labor itself is painted as the most “painful experience of your life”. So, yeah, I had major anxiety as I mentally prepared for the labor. But, I calmed this by assuring myself with my midwife’s words of “your body will know exactly what to do.” And I also reminded myself that every human walking around represented a woman who had had a successful labor.

In preparation for our labor, Seth and I read books on the Bradley Method and attempted a few practice exercises. But at the end of the day, we didn’t take a single labor class. Again, we were really just trusting in my body and our love to guide us through the experience. I also knew that just having Seth there, like at all times, would make me feel completely and absolutely safe and calm. He just has that affect, being the cool, calm-headed super awesome man he is.

On Monday, September 16, we packed up the kids and sent them off to school and then I started cleaning. I had been home resting for two weeks and had cleaned the house so many times, but suddenly, the place looked filthy again so there I went. Starting in the kid’s art room, I worked my way through every room on the first floor. The contractions started soon after I started my cleaning spree. Every time I had one I would call out to Seth and he would time them. At first they were 20 minutes apart, then 14 and then by Noon they were 10 minutes apart. And by 2:30 when school let out they were five minutes apart. At this point, we called the midwives and they were there 20 minutes later.

I could feel each contraction slowly beginning and then would drop my broom or cleaning rag and find a spot to push my back against. I hadn’t read about this in any of the birthing books, but it felt so natural and worked like a charm. For example, when in the kitchen, I put my hands on the counter and then pushed my back into the refrigerator. This way, I could control the pressure. When I wasn’t near the fridge, I would lean onto a table and Seth would come behind and put pressure on my lower back with both of this hands. He would also tell me how much time I had left in the contraction, “You should be on the other side now, only 30 seconds left.” That helped tremendously.

The day couldn’t have been more perfect. The fall breeze blowing through the windows, my Be Good Tanyas Pandora radio playing, and Seth quietly setting up the birth tub while I just cleaned and cleaned. When the kids walked in from school I met them at the door, “He’s coming! Foster is coming today!” They couldn’t believe it was really happening and then, after a few minutes of questions, dove into the fresh cookies I had baked (did I mention I was baking and cleaning). Seth and I had planned on having the kids there during the birth, assuming it was a short birth and all was well. So, we bought a new Wii game for them ahead of time. We limit Wii heavily here so after cookies and snack we gave them MarioKart with a blank check on play time and off they were – occupied for hours – leaving us back to labor. My sister-in-law, Sarah, also came over to watch the kids.

When the midwives arrived they checked my dilation. I was at five centimeters at 2:00 p.m. After this I started dancing in the living room with Lily and Seth to keep my body nice and loose between contractions. We were having so much fun! Laughing and talking and holding each other. I did feel extremely, extremely high on life. The energy was incredible and I found myself choking back tears of sheer happiness. I just felt so excited for Foster, that he was about to arrive after all of this time. This was his big day and I was just his vessel. I felt honored and humbled by what was happening to both of us, together.

Around 3:30, I headed outside and started sweeping the patio (I had run out of things to clean inside). Here I would grab a patio chair and lean my back into the side of the house while pushing into the chair to dull the contraction pain. And during every one, I focused on breathing and keeping calm and focused. Still, though, the pain wasn’t that bad. When one of the midwives told me I could get into the tub, I passed, saying I would rather wait until I couldn’t deal with the pain anymore. At this point I must have been 7 or 8 centimeters. The midwives asked me if I wanted to be checked and I said, “Nope, why bother? I feel like knowing would just be pointless. He will come when he is ready.” They did, however, pop in and check Foster’s heart rate every 20 minutes. In the hospital, the heart rate monitor had been incredibly intrusive to my labor. I remember being unable to freely move because I was hooked up to so many “things”. But the midwives quietly approached and took baby’s heart rate without disturbing or disrupting the moment.

After a particularly intense contraction on the patio, I decided to get into the tub. We had decided to put the tub in our bedroom, the most peaceful and relaxing room in the house. Our upstairs is our sanctuary. Benjamin wanted to join me so he put on his swim trunks and in we went. Benjamin and I were talking and cuddling between contractions and at some point, one of my best girlfriends, Mia stopped by. Many of you may remember her from Ms. Single Mama. Having her there in that moment, Sarah, Seth and the kids – it was just incredible. So, between the contractions – which were getting more intense, even in the water – I was just sublimely happy.

The day before, Lily and I had gone shopping and after nine months of buying nothing for myself aside from a few nursing bras (boring) and maternity pants (ugh), I splurged and bought a pair of dynamite Frye boots. A post-baby present for myself. So, between a contraction I told Mia and Sarah to go check out the new boots in my closet. Maybe that’s why, with them so fresh in my memory, I chose to focus on the boots in my worst moments of pain. Sometime in the tub, around 5:30, the contractions were on top of each other. Seth says this is when I went through transition – but unlike everything I had read – I didn’t have a single moment when I felt I couldn’t do this. The pain was bad, the contractions were incredibly powerful and intense, but I did not doubt my body for a second and I just knew it would soon all be over.

During these contractions I started moaning. That deep, crazy amazon woman moaning I’d seen on birthing videos. And then at some point the midwives checked me and said I was fully dilated and that I could push whenever I was ready. So, I pushed. The pushing actually dialed down the pain a bit and gave me something to focus on. During the pushing contractions I mentally was screaming (and sometimes out loud), “Screw this pain. Screw it.” I decided to conquer it, to battle the pain and to expel it from my body and I knew every push would bring me closer to that. Between the contractions I would completely relax into Seth’s arms and listen to his sweet words and then I would day dream about wearing my new boots. I know, seems ridiculous, but after nine months of being pregnant and unable to wear a single cute thing, those boots were like the holy grail.

During one of these pushes, before I felt my water break, I felt a huge movement inside. I immediately told Seth, “Something happened with that one.” Later we would find out that little Foster had decided to flip into frank breech. After nine months of being head down the little goober flipped himself. Or, that is our theory. We can’t really be sure. But he had been in a head down position at my last visit with the midwives and I hadn’t felt any major movement until then. When baby flips during labor, something that can and does happen, it is called a surprise breech. 

I heard the midwives say they felt a hand instead of a head. I didn’t see the looks of concern on their faces or on Seth’s when they also reported Foster’s heart rate had dropped to 130, dangerously low. Immediately they said, “she’s got to get out of the tub.” And as Seth lifted me out they set up a birthing stool. Once sitting in the stool Kelly, one of the midwives, told me, “You’re baby is breech.”

Stunned, I said, “What are we going to do?”

She answered, “You’re going to have this baby, that’s what you’re going to do. Now I need you to push as hard as you can on the next one.”

And I did. And then, two pushes later, there he came. Balls and butt first (not a hand after all) and with one last giant push, his head. These were the most painful of the contractions. But, still, the pain was about 1/10th of what I had expected after hearing and reading and anticipating (my entire womanhood) the “most painful experience of my life.”

 

 

 
I had a mix of emotions about the impending labor.

The first– an incredible fear of the pain. I had read and watched a mix of birth stories. Those in Ina May’s birth books described their non-hospital births as a more of a drug trip, patient or a high. They deliberately used positive language like “rushes” instead of “contractions”. And then there were the birth stories on documentaries like The Business of Being Born that described the pain as absolutely unbearable, information pills something you just have to surrender yourself to because it’s so bad.

I think there is little doubt, illness that in this country especially, labor itself is painted as the most “painful experience of your life”. So, yeah, I had major anxiety as I mentally prepared for the labor. But, I calmed this by assuring myself with my midwife’s words of “your body will know exactly what to do.” And I also reminded myself that every human walking around represented a woman who had had a successful labor.

In preparation for our labor, Seth and I read books on the Bradley Method and attempted a few practice exercises. But at the end of the day, we didn’t take a single labor class. Again, we were really just trusting in my body and our love to guide us through the experience. I also knew that just having Seth there, like at all times, would make me feel completely and absolutely safe and calm. He just has that affect, being the cool, calm-headed super awesome man he is.

On Monday, September 16, we packed up the kids and sent them off to school and then I started cleaning. I had been home resting for two weeks and had cleaned the house so many times, but suddenly, the place looked filthy again so there I went. Starting in the kid’s art room, I worked my way through every room on the first floor. The contractions started soon after I started my cleaning spree. Every time I had one I would call out to Seth and he would time them. At first they were 20 minutes apart, then 14 and then by Noon they were 10 minutes apart. And by 2:30 when school let out they were five minutes apart. At this point, we called the midwives and they were there 20 minutes later.

I could feel each contraction slowly beginning and then would drop my broom or cleaning rag and find a spot to push my back against. I hadn’t read about this in any of the birthing books, but it felt so natural and worked like a charm. For example, when in the kitchen, I put my hands on the counter and then pushed my back into the refrigerator. This way, I could control the pressure. When I wasn’t near the fridge, I would lean onto a table and Seth would come behind and put pressure on my lower back with both of this hands. He would also tell me how much time I had left in the contraction, “You should be on the other side now, only 30 seconds left.” That helped tremendously.

The day couldn’t have been more perfect. The fall breeze blowing through the windows, my Be Good Tanyas Pandora radio playing, and Seth quietly setting up the birth tub while I just cleaned and cleaned. When the kids walked in from school I met them at the door, “He’s coming! Foster is coming today!” They couldn’t believe it was really happening and then, after a few minutes of questions, dove into the fresh cookies I had baked (did I mention I was baking and cleaning). Seth and I had planned on having the kids there during the birth, assuming it was a short birth and all was well. So, we bought a new Wii game for them ahead of time. We limit Wii heavily here so after cookies and snack we gave them MarioKart and off they were – occupied for hours – and

 

 
I had a mix of emotions about the impending labor.

The first– an incredible fear of the pain. I had read and watched a mix of birth stories. Those in Ina May’s birth books described their non-hospital births as a more of a drug trip, viagra or a high. They deliberately used positive language like “rushes” instead of “contractions”. And then there were the birth stories on documentaries like The Business of Being Born that described the pain as absolutely unbearable, viagra dosage something you just have to surrender yourself to because it’s so bad.

I think there is little doubt, that in this country especially, labor itself is painted as the most “painful experience of your life”. So, yeah, I had major anxiety as I mentally prepared for the labor. But, I calmed this by assuring myself with my midwife’s words of “your body will know exactly what to do.” And I also reminded myself that every human walking around represented a woman who had had a successful labor.

In preparation for our labor, Seth and I read books on the Bradley Method and attempted a few practice exercises. But at the end of the day, we didn’t take a single labor class. Again, we were really just trusting in my body and our love to guide us through the experience. I also knew that just having Seth there, like at all times, would make me feel completely and absolutely safe and calm. He just has that affect, being the cool, calm-headed super awesome man he is.

On Monday, September 16, we packed up the kids and sent them off to school and then I started cleaning. I had been home resting for two weeks and had cleaned the house so many times, but suddenly, the place looked filthy again so there I went. Starting in the kid’s art room, I worked my way through every room on the first floor. The contractions started soon after I started my cleaning spree. Every time I had one I would call out to Seth and he would time them. At first they were 20 minutes apart, then 14 and then by Noon they were 10 minutes apart. And by 2:30 when school let out they were five minutes apart. At this point, we called the midwives and they were there 20 minutes later.

I could feel each contraction slowly beginning and then would drop my broom or cleaning rag and find a spot to push my back against. I hadn’t read about this in any of the birthing books, but it felt so natural and worked like a charm. For example, when in the kitchen, I put my hands on the counter and then pushed my back into the refrigerator. This way, I could control the pressure. When I wasn’t near the fridge, I would lean onto a table and Seth would come behind and put pressure on my lower back with both of this hands. He would also tell me how much time I had left in the contraction, “You should be on the other side now, only 30 seconds left.” That helped tremendously.

The day couldn’t have been more perfect. The fall breeze blowing through the windows, my Be Good Tanyas Pandora radio playing, and Seth quietly setting up the birth tub while I just cleaned and cleaned. When the kids walked in from school I met them at the door, “He’s coming! Foster is coming today!” They couldn’t believe it was really happening and then, after a few minutes of questions, dove into the fresh cookies I had baked (did I mention I was baking and cleaning). Seth and I had planned on having the kids there during the birth, assuming it was a short birth and all was well. So, we bought a new Wii game for them ahead of time. We limit Wii heavily here so after cookies and snack we gave them MarioKart with a blank check on play time and off they were – occupied for hours – leaving us back to labor. My sister-in-law, Sarah, also came over to watch the kids.

When the midwives arrived they checked my dilation. I was at five centimeters at 2:00 p.m. After this I started dancing in the living room with Lily and Seth to keep my body nice and loose between contractions. We were having so much fun! Laughing and talking and holding each other. I did feel extremely, extremely high on life. The energy was incredible and I found myself choking back tears of sheer happiness. I just felt so excited for Foster, that he was about to arrive after all of this time. This was his big day and I was just his vessel. I felt honored and humbled by what was happening to both of us, together.

Around 3:30, I headed outside and started sweeping the patio (I had run out of things to clean inside). Here I would grab a patio chair and lean my back into the side of the house while pushing into the chair to dull the contraction pain. And during every one, I focused on breathing and keeping calm and focused. Still, though, the pain wasn’t that bad. When one of the midwives told me I could get into the tub, I passed, saying I would rather wait until I couldn’t deal with the pain anymore. At this point I must have been 7 or 8 centimeters. The midwives asked me if I wanted to be checked and I said, “Nope, why bother? I feel like knowing would just be pointless. He will come when he is ready.” They did, however, pop in and check Foster’s heart rate every 20 minutes. In the hospital, the heart rate monitor had been incredibly intrusive to my labor. I remember being unable to freely move because I was hooked up to so many “things”. But the midwives quietly approached and took baby’s heart rate without disturbing or disrupting the moment.

After a particularly intense contraction on the patio, I decided to get into the tub. We had decided to put the tub in our bedroom, the most peaceful and relaxing room in the house. Our upstairs is our sanctuary. Benjamin wanted to join me so he put on his swim trunks and in we went. Benjamin and I were talking and cuddling between contractions and at some point, one of my best girlfriends, Mia stopped by. Many of you may remember her from Ms. Single Mama. Having her there in that moment, Sarah, Seth and the kids – it was just incredible. So, between the contractions – which were getting more intense, even in the water – I was just sublimely happy.

The day before, Lily and I had gone shopping and after nine months of buying nothing for myself aside from a few nursing bras (boring) and maternity pants (ugh), I splurged and bought a pair of dynamite Frye boots. A post-baby present for myself. So, between a contraction I told Mia and Sarah to go check out the new boots in my closet. Maybe that’s why, with them so fresh in my memory, I chose to focus on the boots in my worst moments of pain. Sometime in the tub, around 5:30, the contractions were on top of each other. Seth says this is when I went through transition – but unlike everything I had read – I didn’t have a single moment when I felt I couldn’t do this. The pain was bad, the contractions were incredibly powerful and intense, but I did not doubt my body for a second and I just knew it would soon all be over.

During these contractions I started moaning. That deep, crazy amazon woman moaning I’d seen on birthing videos. And then at some point the midwives checked me and said I was fully dilated and that I could push whenever I was ready. So, I pushed. The pushing actually dialed down the pain a bit and gave me something to focus on. During the pushing contractions I mentally was screaming (and sometimes out loud), “Screw this pain. Screw it.” I decided to conquer it, to fight it and get rid of it and I knew every push would bring me closer to that. Between the contractions I would completely relax into Seth’s arms and listen to his sweet words and then I would day dream about wearing my new boots. I know, seems ridiculous, but after nine months of being pregnant and unable to wear a single cute thing, those boots were like the holy grail.

 

 
I had a mix of emotions about the impending labor.

The first– an incredible fear of the pain. I had read and watched a mix of birth stories. Those in Ina May’s birth books described their non-hospital births as a more of a drug trip, case or a high. They deliberately used positive language like “rushes” instead of “contractions”. And then there were the birth stories on documentaries like The Business of Being Born that described the pain as absolutely unbearable, ambulance something you just have to surrender yourself to because it’s so bad.

I think there is little doubt, visit this site that in this country especially, labor itself is painted as the most “painful experience of your life”. So, yeah, I had major anxiety as I mentally prepared for the labor. But, I calmed this by assuring myself with my midwife’s words of “your body will know exactly what to do.” And I also reminded myself that every human walking around represented a woman who had had a successful labor.

In preparation for our labor, Seth and I read books on the Bradley Method and attempted a few practice exercises. But at the end of the day, we didn’t take a single labor class. Again, we were really just trusting in my body and our love to guide us through the experience. I also knew that just having Seth there, like at all times, would make me feel completely and absolutely safe and calm. He just has that affect, being the cool, calm-headed super awesome man he is.

On Monday, September 16, we packed up the kids and sent them off to school and then I started cleaning. I had been home resting for two weeks and had cleaned the house so many times, but suddenly, the place looked filthy again so there I went. Starting in the kid’s art room, I worked my way through every room on the first floor. The contractions started soon after I started my cleaning spree. Every time I had one I would call out to Seth and he would time them. At first they were 20 minutes apart, then 14 and then by Noon they were 10 minutes apart. And by 2:30 when school let out they were five minutes apart. At this point, we called the midwives and they were there 20 minutes later.

I could feel each contraction slowly beginning and then would drop my broom or cleaning rag and find a spot to push my back against. I hadn’t read about this in any of the birthing books, but it felt so natural and worked like a charm. For example, when in the kitchen, I put my hands on the counter and then pushed my back into the refrigerator. This way, I could control the pressure. When I wasn’t near the fridge, I would lean onto a table and Seth would come behind and put pressure on my lower back with both of this hands. He would also tell me how much time I had left in the contraction, “You should be on the other side now, only 30 seconds left.” That helped tremendously.

The day couldn’t have been more perfect. The fall breeze blowing through the windows, my Be Good Tanyas Pandora radio playing, and Seth quietly setting up the birth tub while I just cleaned and cleaned. When the kids walked in from school I met them at the door, “He’s coming! Foster is coming today!” They couldn’t believe it was really happening and then, after a few minutes of questions, dove into the fresh cookies I had baked (did I mention I was baking and cleaning). Seth and I had planned on having the kids there during the birth, assuming it was a short birth and all was well. So, we bought a new Wii game for them ahead of time. We limit Wii heavily here so after cookies and snack we gave them MarioKart with a blank check on play time and off they were – occupied for hours – leaving us back to labor. My sister-in-law, Sarah, also came over to watch the kids.

When the midwives arrived they checked my dilation. I was at five centimeters at 2:00 p.m. After this I started dancing in the living room with Lily and Seth to keep my body nice and loose between contractions. We were having so much fun! Laughing and talking and holding each other. I did feel extremely, extremely high on life. The energy was incredible and I found myself choking back tears of sheer happiness. I just felt so excited for Foster, that he was about to arrive after all of this time. This was his big day and I was just his vessel. I felt honored and humbled by what was happening to both of us, together.

Around 3:30, I headed outside and started sweeping the patio (I had run out of things to clean inside). Here I would grab a patio chair and lean my back into the side of the house while pushing into the chair to dull the contraction pain. And during every one, I focused on breathing and keeping calm and focused. Still, though, the pain wasn’t that bad. When one of the midwives told me I could get into the tub, I passed, saying I would rather wait until I couldn’t deal with the pain anymore. At this point I must have been 7 or 8 centimeters. The midwives asked me if I wanted to be checked and I said, “Nope, why bother? I feel like knowing would just be pointless. He will come when he is ready.” They did, however, pop in and check Foster’s heart rate every 20 minutes. In the hospital, the heart rate monitor had been incredibly intrusive to my labor. I remember being unable to freely move because I was hooked up to so many “things”. But the midwives quietly approached and took baby’s heart rate without disturbing or disrupting the moment.

After a particularly intense contraction on the patio, I decided to get into the tub. We had decided to put the tub in our bedroom, the most peaceful and relaxing room in the house. Our upstairs is our sanctuary. Benjamin wanted to join me so he put on his swim trunks and in we went. Benjamin and I were talking and cuddling between contractions and at some point, one of my best girlfriends, Mia stopped by. Many of you may remember her from Ms. Single Mama. Having her there in that moment, Sarah, Seth and the kids – it was just incredible. So, between the contractions – which were getting more intense, even in the water – I was just sublimely happy.

The day before, Lily and I had gone shopping and after nine months of buying nothing for myself aside from a few nursing bras (boring) and maternity pants (ugh), I splurged and bought a pair of dynamite Frye boots. A post-baby present for myself. So, between a contraction I told Mia and Sarah to go check out the new boots in my closet. Maybe that’s why, with them so fresh in my memory, I chose to focus on the boots in my worst moments of pain. Sometime in the tub, around 5:30, the contractions were on top of each other. Seth says this is when I went through transition – but unlike everything I had read – I didn’t have a single moment when I felt I couldn’t do this. The pain was bad, the contractions were incredibly powerful and intense, but I did not doubt my body for a second and I just knew it would soon all be over.

During these contractions I started moaning. That deep, crazy amazon woman moaning I’d seen on birthing videos. And then at some point the midwives checked me and said I was fully dilated and that I could push whenever I was ready. So, I pushed. The pushing actually dialed down the pain a bit and gave me something to focus on. During the pushing contractions I mentally was screaming (and sometimes out loud), “Screw this pain. Screw it.” I decided to conquer it, to battle the pain and to expel it from my body and I knew every push would bring me closer to that. Between the contractions I would completely relax into Seth’s arms and listen to his sweet words and then I would day dream about wearing my new boots. I know, seems ridiculous, but after nine months of being pregnant and unable to wear a single cute thing, those boots were like the holy grail.

During one of these pushes, before I felt my water break, I felt a distinct movement inside. I immediately told Seth, “Something happened with that one.” Later we would find out that little Foster had decided to flip into frank breech. After nine months of being head down the little goober flipped himself. Or, that is our theory. We can’t really be sure. But he had been in a head down position at my last visit with the midwives and I hadn’t felt any major movement until then.

I heard the midwives say they felt a hand instead of a head. I didn’t see the looks of concern on their faces or on Seth’s when they also reported Foster’s heart rate had dropped to 130, dangerously low. Immediately they said, “she’s got to get out of the tub.” And as Seth lifted me out they set up a birthing stool. Once sitting in the stool Kelly, one of the midwives, told me, “You’re baby is breech.”

Stunned, I said, “What are we going to do?”

She answered, “You’re going to have this baby, that’s what you’re going to do. Now I need you to push as hard as you can on the next one.”

And I did. And then, two pushes later, there he came. Balls and butt first (not a hand after all) and with one last giant push, his head. These were the most painful of the contractions. But, still, the pain was about 1/10th of what I had expected after hearing and reading and anticipating (my entire womanhood) the “most painful experience of my life.”

 

 

 
Here at the beginning of a life you see the funniest things.

We woke up this morning and both agreed Foster’s face had changed overnight. So, check I better post before time slips away from us… here are a few of his faces right now.

The cringe.

TheCringe

The almost smile– a reflex at this point, approved but hey, isn’t it cute?

AlmostSmiling?

The gaze.

Gazing

The just all around perfect.

CrossEye

Foster is as happy as can be. Easy, easy, easy so far… he practically sleeps through the night, aside from waking up to eat – but then he’s right back out again.

xoxo,

Alaina

 

Mr. Foster Gray

Foster will be making his debut in five weeks.

As a result, visit web more about I have a serious case of nesting. Not only at home, physician but at work. With the business being my business and all, information pills I have to make sure all of the ducks are in a row. Fortunately, I have hired an amazing team and they are already proving that they’ll be just fine without me. At home, Seth and I have purged every nook and cranny and we even have the children on a strict chore chart. Turns out they are completely capable of vacuuming, dusting, polishing and even picking up after themselves.

In the quiet moments Benjamin and I have together, he rests his hand and head on my belly and waits for Foster kicks. When he feels one his entire face lights up in awe. I tried to capture it with my camera, but only caught this moment – just after the face lighting up. Here he is just calmly listening and feeling, waiting for another…

Big brother feeling baby

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Diaper Clutches in Leather

10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, stuff physician walking at a quick pace, off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
10 more days to go…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. Everything, pharm thanks to my serious case of nesting, viagra approved is taken care of at the office and at home. So, now, it’s just preparing myself for the birth – at home – and the arrival of little Foster.

As far as the home birth goes, I feel completely comfortable with being here. The rates of C-section for our midwives are a low 4% compared to that of over 25% at area hospitals. Then there’s also the experience of having Foster here, in our home, where we all belong and feel safe and comfortable. I’m actually incredibly excited about the birth. I have been reading piles of books from my dad’s old office. The stories of the births are beautiful versus the stories of the births you often hear now from our generation, given that most are in the hospital.

A hospital birth is my worst fear. Isn’t that interesting? I will freak out if something happens and I have to go in.

As far as the excitement

Mentally, I’m fine one day and totally down the next. Being physically unable to move at my normal pace is what’s gotten me. I can’t even go shopping for more than an hour without feeling faint and short of breath.

But, I know this is completely temporary. It’s just so hard for me to stop as someone who typically never does. For the most part I am directing the kids from the couch. And they have been amazing. Cleaning up after themselves, only when asked (finally starting to do it unprompted), making themselves breakfast, and even playing and keeping themselves occupied for hours without TV or Wii. They’re creative little minds are in full spin right now

I day dream about wearing my skinny jeans and riding with Seth. That’s what I miss the most. Riding with him. Isn’t that odd? I knew I would And being able to walk, to run, to play for hours with the kids instead of in bursts of about 15 minutes at a time.

These last few weeks have been rough the hardest by far. We’re so excited to meet Foster, and I don’t want him to arrive any earlier than he needs, but – ugh – not being able to even shop for more than an hour is torture.
10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, thumb walking at a quick pace, this web off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine. If anything, my greatest challenge will be accepting that life can really be this awesome.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, more about walking at a quick pace, information pills off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, drug I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
I have had so many questions from friends and family about the decision to have a home birth. To Seth and I, look this is a natural choice as our siblings were all born at home. Having witnessed my mother giving birth to my little brother, sick comfortably in her own bed and then having experienced my first birth in a hospital, which was a far cry from that peaceful scene – the choice is clear for me.

However, that choice is extremely personal for every woman and I have zero judgement to anyone who wants to have a hospital birth. But, I think those choosing hospital births should educate themselves on their options. So, I wanted to share an awesome home birth video I love in hopes that you, too, may one day consider having a natural birth with the help of midwives in your own home.

NOTE: this is a tear-jerker. Always makes me cry. Read More…

Home birth video

10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, stuff physician walking at a quick pace, off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
10 more days to go…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. Everything, pharm thanks to my serious case of nesting, viagra approved is taken care of at the office and at home. So, now, it’s just preparing myself for the birth – at home – and the arrival of little Foster.

As far as the home birth goes, I feel completely comfortable with being here. The rates of C-section for our midwives are a low 4% compared to that of over 25% at area hospitals. Then there’s also the experience of having Foster here, in our home, where we all belong and feel safe and comfortable. I’m actually incredibly excited about the birth. I have been reading piles of books from my dad’s old office. The stories of the births are beautiful versus the stories of the births you often hear now from our generation, given that most are in the hospital.

A hospital birth is my worst fear. Isn’t that interesting? I will freak out if something happens and I have to go in.

As far as the excitement

Mentally, I’m fine one day and totally down the next. Being physically unable to move at my normal pace is what’s gotten me. I can’t even go shopping for more than an hour without feeling faint and short of breath.

But, I know this is completely temporary. It’s just so hard for me to stop as someone who typically never does. For the most part I am directing the kids from the couch. And they have been amazing. Cleaning up after themselves, only when asked (finally starting to do it unprompted), making themselves breakfast, and even playing and keeping themselves occupied for hours without TV or Wii. They’re creative little minds are in full spin right now

I day dream about wearing my skinny jeans and riding with Seth. That’s what I miss the most. Riding with him. Isn’t that odd? I knew I would And being able to walk, to run, to play for hours with the kids instead of in bursts of about 15 minutes at a time.

These last few weeks have been rough the hardest by far. We’re so excited to meet Foster, and I don’t want him to arrive any earlier than he needs, but – ugh – not being able to even shop for more than an hour is torture.
10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, thumb walking at a quick pace, this web off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine. If anything, my greatest challenge will be accepting that life can really be this awesome.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
10 days until our official due date…

I am hanging on by a thread in the sanity department. I just want to be back to my normal self, more about walking at a quick pace, information pills off from one place to the next and wearing whatever I want. Right now, drug I’m lucky if I can get from my car to the office without being short of breath and I am down to about four outfits that are acceptable for public consumption.

On the bright side, I was a nesting fool before I came to this screeching halt, so, we’re as prepared as we can be for the home birth and for Foster. If you can really be prepared for either.

They will both be firsts for me– a birth at home and having a child with someone I love. I imagine both unpredictable experiences daily and feel as equally exhilarated as I do terrified. Will we ever sleep again? Will the kids adjust okay? Will Seth and I ever get time to ourselves? Yes. Yes. And, yes, I tell myself. But am I just lying to myself– did we ignore all of these obvious things when we decided to have another? Seth says all of our questions will be answered the moment we see his face. And, as always, he’s absolutely right. Knowing this is all happening for a reason and knowing that fear had no place in our decision assures me that everything will be more than fine.

Remarkable, really, how life just comes at you, like a wave.

I am a woman of few words as of late and have been extremely antisocial. I can say this- I miss you World and will be rejoining you very shortly in my skinny jeans back and with an extremely adorable baby on my hip.

xoxo,

Alaina

 
I have had so many questions from friends and family about the decision to have a home birth. To Seth and I, look this is a natural choice as our siblings were all born at home. Having witnessed my mother giving birth to my little brother, sick comfortably in her own bed and then having experienced my first birth in a hospital, which was a far cry from that peaceful scene – the choice is clear for me.

However, that choice is extremely personal for every woman and I have zero judgement to anyone who wants to have a hospital birth. But, I think those choosing hospital births should educate themselves on their options. So, I wanted to share an awesome home birth video I love in hopes that you, too, may one day consider having a natural birth with the help of midwives in your own home.

NOTE: this is a tear-jerker. Always makes me cry. Read More…

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